Why do you Keep it Locked Inside? by PoisonCupcakeXP, literature
Literature
Why do you Keep it Locked Inside?
Why do you keep it locked inside dear girl?
Is it because you're not ready to trust me,
or the rest of the world?
What is it that's holding you back?
Do you not know,
where your heart is at?
Where did you put away the key?
Did you hide it so I could find it,
a test to see if I was worthy?
Who made you start to act this way?
Was it your own doubt or someone else's?
I'll prove my love for you every day!
When are you going to let me in?
I have to know if the answer is never
So I can try to erase you from my heart forever
if there is no chance that I could win
I know she tries to be strong
Hides her pain from others
But I know in her eyes
That everythings a lie
She tries so hard
To live a better life
Forget the mistakes
Forget about him
But when she's alone
And closes her eyes
She can see it so clearly
Feel his grip
Hear her screams
Remember the fear
How she wanted him to stop
So she crys herself to sleep
And prays that tomorrow will be better
So that maybe with time
She could finally move on.
Your head swirls with ideas to bring me down
Your lips can't wait to spread the rumors
Your eyes glare at me constantly
Your neck holds your big head up high
Your chest beats to the rhythm of my sadness
Your gut gets the excited feeling when you rag on me
Your stomach is filled with evilness
Your liver is filled with hatred
Your hips knock me in the halls
Your legs are waiting to kick me
Your knees want to knee me in the chest
Your feet want to put a whole through my head
Hate is ugly
And you're the ugliest thing that has inhabited this planet
You make me smile when I really need to smile.
You make me laugh when I really need to laugh.
You're there whenever I need you to be there.
And I am so grateful.
I can lean on you.
I can cry on your shoulder.
And best of all, you listen to my crappy problems.
I have a lot of crappy problems.
I'm never upset when I know you're there.
There's no need to cry when you're here,
Unless, they're tears of joy.
Everything is easy.
It's like riding a bike.
I can be one hundred percent me when I'm with you.
I am forever grateful.
I didn't know my smile could be this huge.
I wish this could last forever.
I love you.
Gentle whispers drift about
Like smoke into a room
They tell me things I cannot doubt
And choke me up like fumes
Like smoke into a room
You've hidden all my dreams
And choke me up like fumes
With all your rotten schemes
You've hidden all my dreams
You shattered every hope
With all your rotten schemes
And left me here to cope
You shattered every hope
I feel the burning flames
And left me here to cope
With your unspoken names
I feel the burning flames
The misery you bring
With your unspoken names
And all the words that sting
The misery you bring
It's burned me to the core
And all the words that sting
I lock behind this do
They flood my mind
Stalking me
Driving me insane
Maybe they'll stop?
No. They hiss deep inside
Disturbed.
A freak.
They aren't good
I know they aren't
Hurting and doing things
I know no one does
Help!
I need help!
Don't tell
They don't care
Alone. Abandoned.
They'll get you too.
Why did I take it
My friend you were
Someone to trust
To be there for
I cared for you
How could you do it
Changed yourself
Became something else
No one to help
I'm scared for you
Why do I try
Shunning me
Hurting not listening
I wish that you could see
I loved you...
You never really cared
Seeing the sadness in my eyes
You never really cared
Hearing the fear shake my voice
You never really cared
Feeling the depression of my touch
You never really cared
Knowing you were the one I trust